I Don’t Even Know

There are many things I am supposed to be doing at this exact moment, but computer problems are lending to me not doing those things. I’ve learned that one of the best things to do when computers throw fits is to wait them out. They’re kind of like toddlers that way.

You know, way back when I started this blog [before it became Noise with Dirt; I actually can’t even remember what I called it when I started it before Butter was born], I had this grand design that I was going to write a post that went viral & suddenly people would be looking to me as an admired mom blog.

That has obviously never happened.

Then when I was diagnosed with Moyamoya, I imagined this would be a place people found via search to see that what they were feeling was 100% normal.

That hasn’t happened either.

I’m writing for me now & I think I like that.

I’m writing so that my boys will know what happened in their lives, because I never filled out their baby books [pretty sure Bear doesn’t even have a baby book, let’s be honest] & honestly? This place came in wayyy handy when Butter had to do a timeline of his life for a first grade project.

Side note – you know what’s funny? As of writing this, I haven’t run since I announced on the blog that I was running again. Hahaha. I am looking at signing up for a few events with the Hogwarts Running Club, though. The Time Turner event is coming up & I’m having a hard time picking which event I want to do. I love all of the medals & let’s face it – for me – running is all about the bling.

I’m sitting here with a ton of things I want to write about, but can’t yet. It’ll come in time, but right now? I just don’t know. There are a lot more things I don’t know than I ever thought. And surprisingly? I’m okay with that. I know I’m being vague, but the things going on right now aren’t fit for the Internet.

I will say I am excited about November for more than one reason. And frankly, I’m surprised about the end of September & all of October, too. [I promise, as soon as I can, I’ll write it out.]

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