New Year, New Focus

Is it weird to say that I want to refocus on some things this year? No, because that’s what everyone else is doing? Only they’re calling them resolutions?

Cool.

I won’t call them resolutions, because I’m terrible at them & break them within the first week of making them. Last year I swore I was going to run more. Um. Hahahaha. Nope, that didn’t happen. I wanted to spend more time with¬† my head buried in a good book. That kind of happened. I read something like 75 books last year. Goodreads will tell you it’s 79, but go home, Goodreads, you’re drunk.

This year, I plan to focus on putting my phone down. On not working all the time. On playing with my boys while they’re boys because they won’t want me to play with them for much longer. I’m determined to read through the Bible in a year like I said I would way back in 2011. And my quiet time has to become a front runner in my life. I may go insane otherwise. I want to enjoy my family & not cry so many frustrated tears. I want to spend more time with my friends. I’m going to work on having more grace with my boys, by being quick to listen, slow to speak, and slow to become angry [shout out to James for his excellent advice in chapter 1!].

I really want to focus on running, on not feeling bad on the days when I don’t have time to do it, but not making excuses when I do have the time. And honestly, that might mean making time by becoming a [shudder] morning person. If I have to get up at 5 AM to take care of my well being, isn’t it worth it?

I want to focus on writing more here, whether that means a quick post from my phone at karate/swimming/soccer/tball or taking an hour or so each week to schedule a few posts. This blog has never been about just me, it’s been about my boys & my family. I need to keep better track of the fun things we do, because I certainly can’t remember most of it a few weeks later!

The relationship I share with my husband is going to be a top priority this year, too. Gone will be the days of panic because we can’t find a babysitter when we want to do something fun [alone] together. We have a great group of girls in our youth group & they love kids. I’d feel honored to be able to bless them with some spending cash for a couple of hours of sanity with M.

Here’s to 2014. Let’s make it a great one.

Scatterbrained Blogger

I literally have three different posts started & not published, mostly because I keep getting interrupted when I write them.

And then I keep getting tired. And thinking about random stuff that has NOTHING TO DO with what I want to write about.

I’ve also considered taking a break from blogging. I feel like since I stopped posting every day, it’s more difficult for me to actually find things to write about/time to write. Or maybe that’s just because I’m going crazy with more jobs than any one person should have. Either way.

This is how scatterbrained I am right now. I got distracted looking at this tumblr page & now all I see is this. If you know me, you know why.

nerd girl problem: comic sans.

I’m going to go knit now.

Night all!

Blah.

I feel blah lately.

Not about life, because life is actually really good right now. But about blogging? I don’t want to do it any more.

Okay, that’s not entirely true. I want to write, but I don’t know what to write about.

Do I write about the four part time jobs I’m attempting to work? [You read that right.] Or about how I still haven’t done the paperwork I need to do for Butter for school? Immediately post run, okay? Realistically, it’ll probably be tomorrow. I mean, I’ve done it, it just needs to be mailed in. Which means I have to find it in the paper pit that is our . . .¬† everything on our first floor right now.

I actually feel amazingly content with life right now. There are some Very Big Things coming up for me in the next month or so, and I can’t wait.

Running is going well. I’ve flown through the last week, but I’m not going to fool myself into thinking it’s going to be super easy. I know it’s not. If it’s too easy, it’s not worth it. I got brightly colored running gear yesterday, and that made me happy. It’s kind of silly what I get excited about lately.

I’m fluently speaking toddler again these days. I’m enjoying how much my boys play together & how big their imaginations are getting. As I write this, they’re playing with one of their Christmas presents, making hot chocolate & pizza.

So maybe I’m not so blah after all?